Back after a very long time..

well my last post was back in december last year.. many things have changed from then till now,, now nothing feels right.. btw happy valentines day.. this year valentines day is like equalents to nothin for me last year this exact day was just wow....spending the day just with Ash..meant a lot but not anymore..Ash himself is not here with me anymore how can 14 Feb be normal without you jhalla?? i miss u.. more than anything in this world u were always there for me in times of need and also when i was extremely happy.. now its just me and loneliness. no matter how tough i look at the outside how much i act normal..how much i smile.. it does not even help a little bit to forget u.. i know whatever i do u r never ever gonna be appearing in front of me and say i love u jhaali.. i miss that feeling of love from someone.. i miss than sudden hugs from behind i misss when u talk in a very serious tone and tn i interupt u by giving u a kiss n as always u ended up smilling.. all those wonderful time when we were together wheneven silence meant a thousand words but now even a thousand word dont mean a thing to me where should i be searching these loving moments where shoild i be searching my Ash..my Ashwin he did what he said..that he"ll love me to his last breath u said to me that i need to move on in my life.. but u never teach me how to move on,, u taught me how to love..how to miss...how to be me.. but jaan-e-mann u forgot teach me how to move on..how to forget u..how yo live without u.. why had all this happened to us?? i want you Ash..i really want you.. my life is now meaningless without u.. without the touch if you long fingers.. i want those arms in which i spent millions of nite.. i want it back.. but all of these tears are just good for nothin.. i know they cant bring u back.. i dont care what anyone says i will never stop loving you... yours forever...

My Sweetest Jaanu

ok...
Ash is just the sweetest thing on earth!
had the best time in the whole wide world with him this few days!
but sadly!
cant meet him from tommorow onwards,,
im going out for few days n my mom is back so no more Ash...
huhu!,,
i dont know why my mom hates Ash
Ma plez try to understand lah!

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY

okay first thing its not my anniversary or something..
its 1/12...
last year..this exact day
Ash was PROPOSED in front of me by my cousin..
kay talking bout my cousin her name is Karishma,age 16 born the same day as me...
since i`ve met Ash till today..
she is always trying to make Ash accept her love n fall for her..
oh ya last year was EPIC!!
Ash n me were at my another cousin wedding dinner..
we sat at diff table coz i was wid my family n my aunties were around so after eating and all the music started..
the dance floor was opened so everyone was so xcited n i went to sit between Ash n his mother...(Adit went dancing he is a music maniac,,,Ash`s father was not around)so it was three of us..
i n ash were talking then we went outside bcoz too many people around..
we went to sit at the staircase...
we talked for quite long then came this Karishma..
Her n Ash`s conversation:
Karishma(K):hi Ash
Ash(A):hello
K:okay i cant hide it anymore i need to tell u
A:(so weird look)tell what
K:Pooja do u mind??we need privacy..
Who the fuck she thinks she is!!!!!!ordering me around??
A:no she does not have to go anywhere juz say what is it i have more important things to do
K:ok...Ash this is important since we met n talked...i`ve fell for u..I LOVE U ASH
the momment she said that i was like what the fuck???!!!
u r proposing my boyfriend in front of me..but i just kept quite n waited for Ash`s reaction...
A:WTH??(looked at me with so freaked out face trying to say im innocent)(i just smiled at him)
K:i know u r surprised but i even know that u love me too...
A:(with loud tone)listen i dont love u at all...i love someone else...i dont have any feeling for u..
K:Ash what r u saying??really u dont love me??fine i dont want to talk to u
A:okay plez go..i dont care..Bye-bye(with so happy face)
n she went away with so angry look,,,
the second she left Ash started explaining `i dont know anything,,plez trust me'
i just smiled at him n we were laughing at Karishma..
haha!!!still remember Ash`s look!!!haha

Ash u dont have to worry,,,
i will never have any doubt on u...
i will never ask for any explanations from u..
i know u love me
n u know i love u JHALLA!!!

Mission Accomplished

okaayy..my plan worked out
i actually dreamt bout Ash...
Once upon a dream....this is what happened
okayy...i had juz finished my tuition class n was coming out of the centre n i saw Ash...he came to pick me up...
Then saw Lakshmy outside standing(this might be bcoz im always seeing her at tuition)
then Ash asked to Lakshmy what happened n she said my mom is not picking me up im finding way to go back...so Ash offered to send her back n we were heading to the car n i opened the back door for lakshmy n saw Adit n Veno...
k this is weird!!!
then when lakshmy entered Adit when to the side Veno was sitting in the middle n lakshmy at the other end...me n ash in front
the momment veno went to the middle of the seat Adit hugged her(i saw it perfectly!!!!)n veno replied by leaning on him...
Kay!!!this is epic!!!
then we headed to lakshmy house n all of us in the car n Ash hold my hand and everythin started to look blur n the next momment it was me n ash at his place...then iash n i were talking n his mother came n asked weird ques...`HOW IS YOUR BABY'
n i woke up...
alright the weirdest part...
how is your baby???
from where baby came??
im not pregnant for sure...
then where in the world baby came??

                         
                            BABY???

My Scary Dream

okayy as i promised..
i owe a story bout my dream involving Mr Gunaraj and Archana
alright this i dreamt 2 days ago actually..
it started like this
i mr gunaraj n archana were in a bus.
we were going somewhere but i dont know where neva rached also actually,,
then the bus stopped n there was so many terrorist in the bus try to hijack the bus..
n after this archana when missing it was juz me n mr gunaraj
then the bad guyz looked totally like mr elango..
tried to stab me..
then out of no where mr gunaraj came n faught with sir elan n killed everyone including the driver but the bus was moving perfectly without any driver driving it...
then me n mr gunaraj had eye contact...i dont noe why..it was supposed to be Ash not Gunaraj,,,
n suddenly the song dil ibaadat played..n till the song ended i was looking at Gunaraj ony...totally nutcase

i am so sorry ash
im not supposed to dream anythin like this but,,
dunt worry..tonite my mission is to dream bout us..
to dream i gotta sleep so bye...
love u Ash

(i know u r reading)

Something fishy is going on!

Okayy..the title says it all
i dont know why i feel there`s something fishy going on at twitter now..
Adit sort of hide his email from me.(he never does that)
Veno is not reply to my mail..
Adit not sleeping till late nite n talking bout Veno
okay fine..im gonna enjoy my time now with Ash
Sentosa City here we come!!
later there is an important thin u guyz need to noe..i dreamt bout Mr Gunaraj n Archana..

Late nite

okay...
its 4 am..
im still up juz becoz of Ash..
had a great day today with Ash..
went to Orchard Park...
juz for a long walk..
loved it..
no one was there juz both of us..
when came back home...
Adit was very happy..
he said he chated with Veno...
so,,,forget bout him 
i`ll talk bout Adit n Veno someother time
btw i never introduce the characters..
in this blog u r gonna find these name very often as they r my world
Ash:my jaanu
Adit:Ash`s brother
Veno:my dearest craziest best fren
n me of coz...
okayy...thats all...